Sunday, February 28, 2010

Came, Roared, Left...

It was a tremendous and memorable 2 weeks, I'd say.....
First, my trials and determinations to think for the best for myself in terms of my health, etc....
Well, I did pretty well cos I have to say I really enjoyed myself these 2 weeks when we were all out to usher in the Lunar New Year......
Some unexpected and no-so pleasant stuffs happened in between but all in all I've got my eyes opened up and realised, as well as learnt how to let go certain things and try not to dwell into them for too long and too much. Well, if I cant change what has happened, then I shall let time do the healing and mending while I look forward to each day with a positive mind. I've learnt certain lessons the hard way ; but all in all, I've also learnt not to regret with my actions (more so if those are done without any bad intention to hurt anyone) because I cant undo what's done and revelation shall prevail by itself as time goes by. Meanwhile, I shall let good memories remain in my mind and put those unhappy ones aside for they will only bring much sorrows not only to myself, but those around me. To me, a positive mind is a happy mind.....

Those aside......CNY 2010 is gonna be one heck of a memorable one cos I got to be where I want to be and celebrate it with ALL my loved ones around me!

A reunion dinner with both sides of our family @ West Lake Garden, Sunway Lagoon Resort

Hanging out and chilling at home thereafter. Dad's skin color blends with the background there :)



First day of CNY 2010 @ home sweet home - for the first time!
 Dress code - White :). Daddy's not so white tho....

2nd day - Open hse with lion dance performance for the first time

My beloved munchkins......

Partners in crime!



Love this pic!





A galore and fun-filled day indeed!


Hope to do this again next year :)



Sunday, February 21, 2010

All cleared....

Just called the hospital for my latest result on Feb 19 - I'm cleared from all high risk of HPV!
A huge sigh of relief right after I put down the phone.....all tht's kept me worrying has been lifted up from my 'shoulder', especially the 2 weeks within the CNY period.....
Best of all...Doc said that I can be vaccinated against all's that kept me worried for the past one month!
Got my first of 3 shots of Gardasil on Feb 23! Next one in 2 months time and another in 6 months from the first shot!

God has answered my prayers........

Now...I'll not think about it til my next p-smear..... :)

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

A happier note....

My last few posts have been somewhat harrowing and focusing on the down side of my life.....
But somehow somewhat someway, they have made me a better person now and opened my eyes to another whole new perspective about what life, family, friends are all about.........
I've come to realise that happiness is when we chose to be and how we want it to be......
This might be cliched and heard many times, but it does bring meaningful thoughts for me - "If life gives you lemon, you make lemonade"

So.....I've chosen to live my life on a happier note....somehow to me, we are in this world only for a certain period of time.....eternal life is somewhere else and that's when and where life is fully lived and enjoyed in a positive manner......for now, it's life in this earth that we are born into and lets just rock it and take in whatever that is thrown to us!...I shall just let nature takes its course for whatever's gonna happen next and I shall not dwell too much in it and let my loved ones suffer the consequences.....

Back to my topic here.......yes! on a happier note, CNY is just around the corner! I've put the preparation of it on hold for the past one week and now I'm back on track! More reasons for me to be focused on it for it's the first year after 5 years since I got pregnant with my first child that I get to breathe the air in my own home on this special day........YES!! CNY in my very own home this year! I'm so so so so excited about it! Closed friends and family members know how much this means to me for it's not every year that I get the excitement of waking up in the morning of CNY in my very own home and seeing my loved ones on the first day of CNY itself. I'll be seeing mom, dad, sis, bro, close friends and family members on the first day of CNY itself this year! This feeling was never that significant to me and I have to admit that I've taken it for granted ever since young... until I got married and totally missed this simple yet meaningful feeling of having my loved ones around on THE day. And now, it's coming back to me again this year...ONLY this year and I'm all out to make it a truly memorable CNY.......I wish I could have this same feeling for many more CNY to come....wishful thinking.......

So YES!!! lets roll onto the year of the Tiger with much happiness, merriment, joy, love, warmth and peace....I'll make sure I embrace every single minute of it for it'll truly be one HECK of a CNY for me this year!

Happy Chinese New Year!
May you all be blessed with peace, love, longevity, good health, abundance of wealth and most of all.......................happiness!!! That's the key to a life well lived! Cheers!
HUAT AR!!!!!!................ :D


Wake up call...

The last one week and few days back have been somewhat a wake up call for me....a wake up call in :-

- knowing who my true friends are
- realising who care for me the most
- knowing what and who are the most important ones in my life
- realising what my life priorities should be
- narrowing down the focus of my life
- redefining what I want and what I'll do in my life
- realising health is indeed a treasure in one's life and that it should not be taken granted for in whatsoever ways......

I truly and deeply understand the true meaning of relationships with family and friends. It's somehow unfortunate that I found these out the way I did but it's better to realise it than not at all.......I've come to realise the priorities in my life and that the truth is, I cant please everyone and vice versa. Nonetheless, I've tried doing my part in holding whatever ties I have with those in my life and should they not hold onto it longer, I shall just let them go knowing that I've done my best and I've given my all in ensuring those ties are strongly bound.......

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

and the wait continues....

My results were out today....no pre-cancerous cells were detected from my biopsy (a huge relief there!) BUT I've been diagnosed with HPV (Human Papillomavirus).

I'll let the article abstracted from the internet do the explanation......

Human Papillomavirus, more commonly known as HPV, is a viral infection spread through skin to skin sexual contact. HPV is a group of over 100 different viruses, with at least 30 strains known to cause different types of cancer. There is currently no cure for HPV.







How Can You Get HPV






HPV is transmitted by skin to skin contact through vaginal, anal and oral sex with a partner who already has HPV. If infected, signs and symptoms may take weeks, months and even years to appear. Symptoms may never appear.






Symptoms of HPV






Symptoms of HPV normally appear in the form a cauliflower like growths called genital warts. These warts may also be flat. They can be found on the inside and the outside of the vagina. These growths may take weeks or even years to show after having sex with an infected partner. Again, they may appear show at all.






How Do I Know If I Have HPV?






An HPV test can be done to determine if a person has HPV. Testing samples of cervical cells is an effective way to identify high-risk types of HPVs that may be present. The U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA) has approved an HPV test that can identify 13 of the high-risk types of HPVs associated with the development of cervical cancer. There is currently no test to determine if a man has HPV.






Preventing HPV






Abstaining from any type of sexual realtions is ideal in preventing HPV, but not very realisitc these days for adults. Wearing a condom provides limited protection. The male condom provides limited protection. Keep in mind that since HPV may not show any visible symptoms, your partner may still be infected.

I have no idea how I contracted such virus for according to my gynae, "HPV is not necessarily contracted through sexual intercourse alone. One could also easily get the virus from the toilet seats!...." and that makes me wonder even further..........where?when?how?who?????...etc.....millions of questions....with no answers, of course..... :(

Well, I've had another round of pap-smear done again today to determine the DNA of the HPV in me - if it's a high risk or low risk virus. I can still be vaccinated against cervical cancer if it's of the low risk category (praying hard tht I belong to this category) but IF I'm at the high risk group (13 out of 130); there's nothing much that can be done apart from diligently having my annual pap smear done in hope that it wont turn pre-cancerous. SO yes.....and the wait continues......it's another round of anticipation for the results in 2 weeks time......one after another......

*I'd like to thank those who were concern about me and who took the effort in contacting me for the updates of my medical condition. Words cannot describe how your tweets, phone calls and sms-es meant so much to me, knowing that there are people out there who care and think about me when I face those 'down' moments in my life. Thank you all sooooooo much for your kind words and support. They all somehow made me stronger in facing what the future holds for me*



Monday, February 01, 2010

WORST week of my life...

The 4th week of January 2010 is by far...(I hope it stops there) the worst week of my life...
First off - my turbulent and traumatic experience from my recent pap smear result, which as not ended for the results of my biopsy will only be out next Tue.

Then it was on Thursday night that I had one of the worst fight with hubby throughout our 7 years of marriage. It all started early in the morning with some misunderstanding in the car which led to a cold and silent war throughout the day.....and finally catapulted to a very nasty exchange of words right before bed time......It was so bad that I think our voices were heard by our neighbours, not to mention our helper who sleeps in a room near to ours. The only thing missing was physical fight! haha!

Well, we managed to kiss and make up after about 45 mins of exchange of harsh, hurtful and poisonous words.....needless to say, I woke up with 2 extremely swollen eyes - a result of crying and pouring of gallons of tears during the exchange of words with beloved hubby.....

Guess my unstable emotions since the beginning of the week contributed to the start of war with hubby.......praying and hoping real hard that we need not hav to go thru such roller coaster in our marriage ever again....it's definitely not worth it at all to fight, especially when the fight revolves around misinterpretations which involves other not-so-significant people in our lives.....

Well, something good did result from our war though......we're more loving to each other now than we ever did and we've made a pact to fully understand each other's feelings before jumping into negative conclusions........

....still praying hard for tomorrow's outcome at the hospital.........